Sweet Relief

I am so relieved. The worst of my anxiety has passed. I think when I hit the really low point weeks ago it must have been just the withdrawal from the medication. I still am anxious and sad but I feel it's normal. I read lots of other blogs and ALL of the moms who are expecting are as anxious as I am. And ALL of the moms who have lost babies around this time of year and are coming up to the one year mark are as sad as I am. I have plateaued into something normal and while it still sucks that I'm anxious and sad at least I know I'm not crazy. It's manageable and it's what is to be expected at this moment in my life. I feel like it was such a good decision to get off of the meds. I feel much better without them. I will still have to make the decision after Caleb is born about whether I want to go back on them. I did have post partum depression after I had Abigail and I had to take meds for about a year. I'm not going to worry about that right now though. I'll think about it when I am preparing for my post labour checkup.