Anniversaries

One year ago yesterday I peed on a stick and officially welcomed Caleb into our family.  It was a bittersweet night.  Knowing that the next day, one year ago today, September 18th was Blaine's expectant due date.  My boys.  In front of me sits one, in his bumbo chair, playing with his big sister.  And around my neck is my first son.  Ashes in a pendant.  It hardly seems fair but like the song goes "you can't have one without the other."  And I am finally okay with that.